absence of intelligence.

Naramdaman mo na ba yung parang laging may kulang ?

O yung umibig pero alam mo na walang patutunguhan but you still went on it.

Nung grumaduate ako akala ko ang pagkakaabalahan ko lang eh kung paano magpayaman, mag business and eventually take masters or even enroll myself in a law school.

pero bakit nagulo ?

I still remember, holy week i woke up in a very hot afternoon and open the television only to see a re-run movie and heck its a love story then i ask myself where is mine, where is my story ? where is my lovestory ? God ! awful bat bigla bigla tinatanong ko sa sarili ko yung mga ganitong bagay. I have to control myself. Hindi pwedeng masira mga plano ko.

then holy week came to an end, back to reality work na ulit. at kasama ko na naman mga numero habang iniintay ang weekend, same routune everyday.

then one day napadaan ako sa simbahan, na frequent naman ako dumadaan then i uttered sana god magka lovelife naman ako sa labas pa nga kasi ndi naman talaga ako pumapasok sa simbahan. then after a couple of days i met this guy (yes ! im gay) whose the same preference with me. he seems okay. hes cute. intelligent. malambing and younger than me.

Actually, our story is short. its a very short one thats why maybe i felt so bad.

because you dreamt of this eh, you been waiting for this for months and i thought because i pray for this i thought it would last not that im expecting for forever but i want something na ndi naman isang buwan nor weeks.

alam mo yung pakiramdam na magiging okay ka someday but you know for yourself na may nag iba. na as a person aware ka na meron bagay na gusto mo na kahit anong pag iipon mo ndi mo kayang bilin cause in the first place it is something na for sale. totoo talaga na the best thing in this world is not a thing.

Move on !

where do i go — Katy perry.

Acceptance robin sabi ng kaibigan ko.

Tanga mo robin sabi nang isa. (wala naman talaga tanga absence of intelligence lang)

 

Hanggang kailan kaya to. ?

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